Hello, my name is paper and I am a piece of paper.
My purpose is to have people write on me and to be printed by printers.
I like the smell of wood because it smells like my parents.
My ambition is to be thrown away and recycled.
(lmao i don't know what to put in here, so thanks Claire for the message.)
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
well.. updatin nw at this itme cuz i didn't go sch today.. haix. actuali wrote a whole long post bout my postin results etc.. and en th stupid blogger had to screw up at th time when i'm feelin my lowest.. haix.. well.. postin results came out and i'm nt v happy.. oh well.. every1's been tellin me dat whoa.. so gd u gt into anderson.. bt i dunno la.. is juz dat i reali dun feel anyth bout gettin in ther.. cuz well.. th main thing is dat i'm goin bak ther alone and u're nt ther.. stupid sch.. noe alot of ppl is lyk vyin for dat chance to get into dat sch so chances if u gettin in is lyk goin to b soo slim.. bt nvm.. we'll neva gif up and persevere on! jiayou.. bt actuali aft lyk 2times of tryin and failin, everyth juz seems abit hopeless and bleak.. i dun wanna go bak ther and struggle out myself.. rmb dat day when i called for our postin reults.. i was shocked of wher u were posted to.. and th whole morn i was askin myself.. y? y did this hpn? sumtimes God's mind is so unfathomable dat no1 can understand wat he's up to.. bt God, if u're hearin this.. plz.. plz let it b successful this time.. plz.. :/
was actuali tinkin of gg poly aft gettin th results bt aft dat decided to gif up dat idea cuz went to nyp dat day and saw a loooong queue of ppl quein up.. so wat.. is dat supposed to b lyk God's will dat i go to a jc.. to a sch lyk ajc and strike out ther on my own.. no way man.. i'll juz die ther.. look at th pressure ther and is enuff to kill me.. haix.. i noe i hafta b positive and persevere and nt gif up when i'm lyk halfway on my race bt sumtimes, is reali v v v hard to juz hang on to it.. and mor imptly, i'm nt a long dist runner.. i'm nt 1 hu can run a marathon without givin up halfway.. so Lord, dun make me run sth alone dat i can neva do it.. is owax been ppl ther for me.. evn in races.. ther's owax twinaiai beside me runnin together wid me and tellin me nt to gif up.. and nw al i ask for is *..
ytd's orientation as usual was damn borin.. was stonin ther half of th time.. wasn't reali in th mood to do anyth oso.. my mind kept driftin off elsewher. haix.. went bak phs to settle sum stuff and tok to ms yeo oso.. she told me dat i cannot gif up and hafta b th pillar of strength nt th lamentin 1 oso.. her words kinda struck me tinkin.. can't possibly let 2ppl wallow together if nt nth's gd is goin to b comin out of it oso.. and i'm tryin.. hopefully i can change al these into my positive strength.. :/
anw.. did sth reali bad on mon.. is been quite long and guess dun wish to elaborate ba.. juz wanna say thanks mummy and daddy for nt scoldin me.. and thanks daddy for nt throwin a big temper out of it.. thanks alot.. i geuss i hafta thank God for this 5letter word called SORRY.. seriously, this word is damn powerful man and of cuz damn diff to say.. bt sayin it reali makes a diff..
guess i'll b endin here soon.. tot mayb cld meet min and eve for lunch bt mum dun allow me to go out cuz i didn't go sch 2dae.. haix.. gg for choir ltr bt guess by en min and eve shld haf fin their lunch and eve cut her hair and they'll prolly b makin their way bak for dinner le.. owell.. miss em.. hopefully durin th mar hols.. wil b able to find a day to meet up and catch up wid em..
and till nw, i stil can't bliff dat i'm in ajc.. i can't imagine myself wearin dat gray shirt and blue skirt.. omg.. tink i look fugly in dat.. i can't bliff i'm reali on my way to jc and i reali hafta get serious and start studyin le.. omg..