Hello, my name is paper and I am a piece of paper.
My purpose is to have people write on me and to be printed by printers.
I like the smell of wood because it smells like my parents.
My ambition is to be thrown away and recycled.
(lmao i don't know what to put in here, so thanks Claire for the message.)
Sunday, February 25, 2007
hvin gp lectures nw.. supposedly supposed to do research on sum world news or wadeva.. bt well.. nt reali in th mood to do nw.. feelin damn moody nw.. oh well.. dunno y oso.. mayb cuz i lost my dat nalgene bottle.. th 1 pinwen gave to me 1.. guess today's nt my day.. oh well.. bt well.. is cheyenne's bdae today! so happy 17th bdae cheyenne.. (:
missinualot&alotkeeptinkinofuwishinuwerehere:/[edited]
anw.. found my bottle le.. (: it was at th auditorium.. hahas.. 4gt to take it juz now.. phew.. bt oh well.. th whole day reali didn't turned out well for me.. haix.. juz quarreled wid my parents agn agn.. sumtimes i reali wonder iszit juz communication breakdown btwn us? lyk i can't understand them and they oso can't understand me.. i noe they were already bein veri nice to allow me to go sentosa th other time.. i noe how much they try to compromise.. so iszit reali my fault? sumtimes i reali wonder.. bt well.. i tot is beta to let em noe truthfully lyk wher i was goin etc bt guess it was al wrong suddenly is lyk so much beta nt to tell em and everyth.. juz lyk today aft comin bak hme fr choir was lyk so tired and hungry bt decided to tel my parents dat i was goin to mjc tml and en ijc on fri.. and en they scolded me for keep on hoppin here and ther.. well.. is nt i wan to.. is juz get sum other sch's experiences b4 i reali settle dwn.. is lyk i DO noe my limits la.. until nw, can't they c dat i hate them to control me lyk dat.. ok.. mayb i'm reali wrong to b so stubborn and insist everyth to b done my way :/ bt i juz told em dat i was reali considerin bout poly cuz i've been tinkin these few days.. does th jc sys reali suit me? haix.. and en my dad started scoldin me and say i follow friends agn.. so well and dat gt on my nerve agn.. so ok mayb my attitude of speakin bad to him was kinda bad so i was lyk follow hu.. follow hu.. u tel me la and my eyes was open v wide tink dat pissed him off and aft dat he started askin my mum wher's th cane or sth so wat is he lyk gg to whack me?! wadeva.. en my mum say no cane en lyk an hour ltr he told my mum u tml go buy 2canes if nt th nxt time i'm gg to use th stick.. wadeva.. ytd nite mum was juz tellin him he shldn't throw th chair th other time and he cld lyk say until is al my fault and nt his and en nw he wans to use th stick?! 4get it la u might as wel beat me to death *&^$$! ): was lyk tellim myself jz nw th nxt time if my dad uses violence at me agn i'm gonna run away fr hme.. reali.. is lyk wat's this family gettin to me man.. keep gettin into quarrels and my dad dong bu dong use violence on me.. hello! for goodness sake i'm 17 and i'm a GIRL and u stil wanna use violence.. plz.. we've been lyk quarrelin wid each other on and off.. ok en nt ok en ok agn for th past 3days and i'm totally sick of it.. since we find so hard to get along wid each other i might as wle juz leave th hme save th trouble of u gettin pissed at me and me gettin pissed at u.. haix.. sori for bein rebellious bt sumtimes is juz dat i reali can't take it anymor.. i reached my boilin pt le.. it has been lyk this since sec3 onwards and i'm reali v sick and tired of al these le.. mayb i'm reali turnin bad. i noe my attitude sux sumtimes bt i reali cannot take it le.. sumtimes is lyk dun u tink u're bein too petty oso.. keep gettin angry over nth and keep usin violence towards me.. everytime u get so disappointed and unhappy at me.. b y dun u put urself in my shoes and dat's th xact way dat i feel bout ual.. sumtimes i reali wish to juz tel ual my probs bt everytime aft tellin ual al i get is disappointments and condemnations and scoldins.. i reali dun c th pt anymor.. everyth is juz gettin so meaningless ): so my mum was lyk tokin to me and ask me to behave myself en i was lyk tellin her wat i felt and everyth bt 1 thing which i reali regretted sayin was tellin her if daddy's goin to beat me i'm goin to run away fr hme.. i had enuff le.. of cuz i was cryin la.. hello.. dat hurts ok.. well and bcuz of dat she scolded me mor.. o well.. noe she's worried bt reali.. can she c th struggle dat i'm in.. haix.. noe they're strugglin wid me too.. since is so diff i'm so tempted to put everyth to an end lurhs.. save al th heartache al th worryings and al th cryings.. haix.. ):
actuali wanted to blog bout my bdae celebrations etc bt guess i reali nt in th mood to nw.. knew today was reali bad.. since mornin until nw nth has been goin smoothly oso ):
so guess i shall juz thank those ppl here hu celebrated my bdae and make it such a memorable 1.. thanks ppl.. (: bt is reali th best bdae i had.. yupp.. so thanks to:
1.dee
umadearealispecialbdaecelebration4metks4puttinaltheffortrealivtouchedwellmytearsareproof(:tksforatleastmakinmefeellykimlovedandcaredforandbeincherishedheartsu! 2.those hu celebrated cheyenne's and my bdae! (: eve.min.anet.wenqi.jolene.
*well noe th other 29o4 gurls cldn't make it cuz is stil durin cny ma summor is ren ri lei.. thanks for ur bdae wishes anw! (:
3. those hu wished me happy 17th bdae 1 way or another!
4. hueva dat decided to release th fireworks on dat day and at dat time! (:
well.. had many diff surprises this bdae (: of cuz v pleasant 1s la.. thanks for al ur effort put in reali am veri touched.. oh ya.. min and eve and victorr, thanks alot for dat box of hearts! :D well.. many unexpected ppl wish me happy bdae this yr oso.. while expected sum ppl to wish hu didn't in th end? oh well.. is ok la.. evn my own auntie and cousin oso 4gt la.. lols.. my bdae dat diff to rmb meh? o well..
guess shall end here le.. at least i feel much beta aft bloggin? hopefully la.. stil feelin abit down.. haix.. God, if u're hearin me, pls help me and teach me wad to do :/