Hello, my name is paper and I am a piece of paper.
My purpose is to have people write on me and to be printed by printers.
I like the smell of wood because it smells like my parents.
My ambition is to be thrown away and recycled.
(lmao i don't know what to put in here, so thanks Claire for the message.)
Thursday, December 14, 2006
hey.. well.. bak to updatin.. well.. these few days were kinda busy so ther wasn't reali any time to blog oso.. oh well.. anw.. ytd was well.. shld i say a veri veri bad day to go out? yesyes.. it wasn't near th word gd cuz well.. many unexpected things happen.. yupp.. oh well.. bt we shld owax gif thanks to God for al dat happen isn't it? bt now.. if i reali go and tink about it..i tink sum of em i reali hafta gif thanks to God for.. yupp.. at least my mum didn't probe mor or sth or shld she c sth worst than dat i tink i can reali go and celebrat already cuz i bet this time everyth wil get much much worst and for dat.. i hafta thank God alot alot.. and thank God is my mum dat saw and nt my dad or any other relative or sth dat ltr bcums a blabbermouth.. i tink things wil get even worst and they may juz twist and turn and pervert everyth and en everyth bcums so terrible.. yupp.. so thank God for dat..
so well.. ytd.. everyth kinda started on a wrong note tho.. cuz sum idiotic person go and play my phone when he/she apparently tried on-ing my phone when i was slpin and cuz i put th phone lock code thing.. th person wasn't able to on my phone which in th end screwed up my whole alarm clock and in th end i woke up at 8.45 whn i'm supposed to wake up at lyk 8am and get out of my hse at 8.50.. great rite? oh well.. jumped out of bed and went to check my jc postings.. well.. when i gt my postin results i gt a shock.. cuz i tot i'll get into innova sci.. cuz well.. these few days i had a feeling i'll get into either aj or ij sci.. bt tot dat aj seems a lil too far fetched for a 12pointer lyk me.. bt well.. my results showed dat i gt into aj sci stream.. when i realised i gt inside.. i felt so mixed.. i dunno wat i was feelin.. happy or supposedly to feel sad dat y didn't i get into innova.. cuz well.. aj isn't reali wat i wan is cuz of my parents dat wan me to go ther.. and en my dad violently object meridian so i onli left wid innova.. most of my frens are goin innova and well.. i dun even noe hu th hell fr my class or even my sch is goin aj oso.. felt kinda lyk
"wat shld i do"? (well.. dat was ytd 15/12/06 stuff which i blogged halfway ytd) bt now.. fr shimin, i kinda noe hu's goin to aj le.. well.. kinda sian when i heard hu was goin aj.. sum ppl dat i dun reali lyk goin and of cuz al those" weird" ppl oso goin? such as in a sense lyk i dun even noe them la.. as in i dun reali tok to em in sch and stuff.. well.. gt to noe sum of my pri sch frens goin oso.. bt well.. al oso nt close de.. great.. th whole thng bcums a cycle.. i hafta start makin frens al over agn.. is nt dat i dun lyk to make frens is juz dat.. when u're al alone is kinda difficult u noe.. oh well.. haix.. and another thing i hate bout goin aj is when ppl asked me wher i'm goin and i tel em.. they start sayin oh, u followin ur sister.. sumhow i dunno y i juz simply hate it la.. bt when i go and tink bout it.. is kinda true tho.. gt into th same sec sch as her en joined th same cca and en nw, i'm oso goin ther for my 1st 3mths.. haix.. oh well.. i hate ppl say dat i'm followin my sister's footsteps.. nt dat i dun lyk it or anyth bt well.. dat's juz nt me.. i'm nt a mimick image of hannah or sth.. i'm phebe for goodness sake.. i hate ppl to link me wid hannah and bcuz bein in th same sch, my parents tend to make me be lyk hannah.. which it sux.. serious.. totally.. cuz hannah's life isn't MY life and i'm nt lyk her.. i can't study and study and en ok.. mayb well.. th * section included.. plz.. she may haf great self control wid her hormones bt i dun.. and i admit.. so how can i b lyk her? and i neva wanted to b lyk her.. i neva wanted my parents to go rant about my results and en compare wid my sis's results or how well behaved she is and how bad behaved i am and th list goes on.. haix.. dat's 1 of th reason y i didn't wanna b in aj either.. bt since is God's will to put me ther.. i guess i hafta accept it and anw.. is juz lyk 3mths dat i'm gonna b ther and en aft dat i can decide for myself if i wanna stay ther oso.. so yesyes.. phebe, b mor positive!
anw.. went bak sch b4 goin aj.. cuz of my dumb contacts la.. oh well.. gd oso.. managed to c jack they al and they were discussin bout hpt trng camp stuff.. well.. kinda feel bad missin th camp.. bt can't help it.. i'm workin and i definitely can't afford to take anymor leave since i'm lyk onli workin for 15days.. ok.. make it 14 since i already took a leave th other time cuz of my jc postings.. well.. anw.. aft goin aj went to meridian.. as usual.. i simply love th sch.. i dunno y.. juz tnk dat everywher looks so comfortable and perfect.. exactly luk th sch of my choice.. bt haix.. y does it hafta b at pasir ris??!!! y can't it b lyk sumwher much much nearer? =.= oh well.. guess dat's wat i call a dream sch and en th sayin goes wher dreams and reality dun mix or sth lyk dat.. oh well.. alrite.. shall stop tokin bout th borin jc stuff..
anw.. ytd was on th phone wid eve ahma min and kel.. aft dat kel hung up cuz we gurls wanted a gurl tok! hahas.. poor him.. oh well.. gif me a choice, i wld oso wan kel to hang up la.. cuz well.. personal stuff is beta nt to let him noe so much oso.. anw.. is lyk th 4 of us were tokin.. well.. owax love th time when we tok and yesyes.. we did a lil bit of catchin up and updatin. and i slept at 2.40 cuz my phone died on me and we cldn't continue our conversation.. bt yepp.. i reali do miss them and of cuz al th other 29o4 gurls.. seriously, i dun reali noe when can i reali c th others oso.. wid al th work and everyth.. i guess a busy schdule wid al th work reali do drift us apart.. bt wel.. u ppl are stil veri greatly missed in my heart..
anw.. ytd my cousin told me dat his fren died when he was holidayin in china.. and guess wat.. he's onli lyk 17yrs old.. well.. my cousin's super sad now cuz dat's lyk his veri veri gd fren and he juz died so suddenly due to a sudden internal bleedin.. haix.. i guess life is reali veri veri unpredictable.. u neva noe wat's goin to happen and when.. i guess i reali hafta start thankin God for protectin and preservin my frens and me.. i reali can't imagine how any1 of em is gonna leave me.. so yesyes.. dear God, plz continue to protect al my frens and i.. and i guess i reali muz cherish and treasure and mor cherish and treasure each and every1.. life can b juz so short and so unpredictable and fragile.. yet it can b such a wonderful and beautiful creation.. :/
well.. i guess i'm gettin reali veri veri emo now.. oh well.. i guess is either cuz is th time of th month or well.. i juz haf alot of tots runnin through my head and suddenly, i juz feel veri insecure about everyth.. supposedly to go shoppin wid my mum and my sisters ltr.. sth i shld b lookin forward huh.. bt suddenly, i juz feel lyk stayin at hme and juz starin into th celing and juz tink and tink bout everyth..