Hello, my name is paper and I am a piece of paper.
My purpose is to have people write on me and to be printed by printers.
I like the smell of wood because it smells like my parents.
My ambition is to be thrown away and recycled.
(lmao i don't know what to put in here, so thanks Claire for the message.)
i tink sylvia had it spot on today.. =.= zzz.. wat a great time to cum man.. wth.. i'm supposed to b in a veri gd mood throughout this whole wk and this day haf to spoil everythin for me.. and wat's mor.. is a fri.. supposedly th best day among th 5.. haix.. i was in a gd mood this mornin and hu noes i started feelin moody when takin th video tapin thing bt i reali felt beta aft dat and great.. my dad hafta spoil everythin again.. screw him lurhs.. fcuk! i'm friggin pissed and disappointed at him in fact i feel my blood boilin now lurhs.. wth.. oh well.. i shall update b4 i start blowin my head off.. zzz..
it's been lyk 4days since i last gt to th comp..
so nth much happened these few days.. juz revision and mor revision and i tink i kinda decided to gif up on physics le.. in fact.. many ppl ask me to continue to strive since i already on it for lyk 1yr plus.. bt th thing is i dun reali haf th strength to go on wid physics.. i'm veri tired and mr choo is a nice teacher bt he's nt gd.. he reali dunno how to teach lurhs.. cuz i reali feel physics lessons are a waste of time hearin him tok.. he juz makes me mor and mor confused wid his super knowledge of physics and keep tellin me things i dun even nid to noe.. and i guess this whole wk many ppl handphones spoil or sth.. i've been to th samsung and nokia shop lyk twice each which makes it 4 times in 5days.. lols.. anw.. i can't reali rmb wat happened these few days i'm sufferin fr memory loss and i sumtimes even 4get wat i'm sayin aft a second ltr and my tots keep runnin away.. oh well.. and oh yes.. i made my twinaiai stop rollin her eyes at me.. ahahs.. i'm juz bein concerned for her ok.. wid th rate she's rollin her eyes, i'm so afraid her eyes wil juz drop out of her socket.. rofls.. so anw.. this wk was quite ok except th super pissin part and th rate my class is startin their revision for prelims.. is lyk now, when ther's free period, every1 wil b bz doin their revision bt here i am sleepin into my dreamland owax.. bt en when u c u're th onli 1 sleepin and every1 is studyin so hard, u oso win b abale to sleep an xin.. lyk u'll keep tinkin omg.. wat am i doin? sleepin my time away when i'm supposed to study.. oh well..
anw.. learnt th high sch musical dance today.. th dance steps quite alrite la juz dat is reali veri diff to rmb al th steps and follow wid dat super fast tempo.. bt yea.. is reali veri veri fun and best of al it makes me sweat which helps me burn my calories.. yay! (:
and ther was this blood donation drive thing dat my sch's havin and yes.. for sum miraculous reason.. i felt lyk donatin my blood altho i haf a veri low threshold of pain and am exceptionally afraid of needles.. bt yes.. i dunno y.. i suddenly wan to donate my blood and do abit for th society and i bliff this gonna b a reali gd experience oso.. so i went hme to ask my parents if i can donate blood.. and their first reaction was: NO! U'RE SO WEAK AND U OWAX SLP SO LATE AND U WANNA DONATE?! NO! kaes.. fine.. nt in a veri gd mood already and my dad hafta add this: MUZ B UR FRENS AGAIN.. FOLLOW UR FRENS DONATE BLOOD.. fuck u la.. bastard! i was veri angry when i heard it ok.. sori for bein vulgar and rude bt u can't blame me ok.. is lyk hellO! stop linkin every single thing i do to my frens
pur-leease.. and when he says i look agitated and en my mum was lyk th mor angry u get, th faster ur brain cells die.. en i was lyk die lo.. and yayaya.. my dad was sayin u c, u dun ans lyk dat last time.. u changed so much yadayada and en he was lyk DUN GO ON SUNDAY WHEREVA U'RE GOIN.. U GET SUCH BAD INFLUENCE U'RE SUPPOSED TO INFLUENCE UR FRENS.. zzz.. plz.. i was so angry en i juz told him i'm angry at u for sayin everythin i do is bcuz of my frens.. i juz wan to donate blood and u link it to my frens.. and he was lyk i was juz makin an assumption.. and y am i so defensive of my frens.. protect them.. use ur brains plz.. i'm protectin myself here.. hello! wth.. and en he says is my fault and start comparin hannah and me.. yayaya.. u neva wrong la i owax wrong happy? made me cry again la.. and keep sayin dun let me go on sunday.. wadeva.. u owax do dat anw.. i oso xi guan le la.. u owax tink u're rite.. sum fuckin egoistic daddy i haf.. lyk u neva consider my feelins can.. owax condemn me and my frens.. u oso gt tok on th phone veri long y dun u say urself keep sayin i tok veri long.. u urself oso studyin wat.. wat's th diff? cuz u're th adult and i'm th kid iszit? arrrgh! and y dun u tink i spend mor time wid my frens cuz at least they try to understand me and hear my probs.. they at least let me feel i'm sumwher nt sum pathetic freak.. understand? is nt as if i dun study or wat.. i do study ok.. juz dat u nid time to de stress wat.. and dat's tokin on th phone for me.. u oso dun study everyday wat.. u oso gt do ur own de stressin stuff wat.. arrrgh! u noe.. i feel so hated by u and i feel dat i hate u.. i hate u for condemnin me and my frens.. i hate u for nt tryin to understand and keep makin assumptions.. i hate u for tinkin dat u're owax rite.. and great.. juz bcuz of sum dumb blood donation permission askin thing and we get into a big quarrel.. wth.. is ur fault! u started it! i dun even wish to pick a quarrel wid u plz.. arrrgh!
and i'm eatin so much and so much dat i'm gettin fatter and fatter! arrrgh! i feel bulimic.. everytime i keep eatin non stop and aft eatin i feel lyk pukin everything out when i tink of al th fats and calories dat juz went down into my tummy.. bt nah.. i'm nt doin dat.. is juz a tot.. bt ther's sth seriously wrong wid me lurhs.. ):
and now ther's this shld i go jc or poly thing goin on.. i dun even noe wher i wanna go now lurhs.. i feel so confused.. so pissed.. so disappointed.. so fat.. so everything..
fuck!