Hello, my name is paper and I am a piece of paper.
My purpose is to have people write on me and to be printed by printers.
I like the smell of wood because it smells like my parents.
My ambition is to be thrown away and recycled.
(lmao i don't know what to put in here, so thanks Claire for the message.)
heyyas.. hmmm.. so gt bak my bio paper today.. was kinda happy wid my results! (: ahahs.. actuali how i wish if al these results cld b my o lvl results en it'll b so perfect.. lols.. minus th fact dat i gt a F9 for physics and a lower grade for my humans.. bt yepp.. i shld learn to b satisfied wid wat i haf.. bt sumhow.. al these results kinda boosted my confidence to make myself study harder.. make me feel this is th kind of results i wanna get for my o's.. bt haix.. sumhow.. my heart and brain haf agreed together and decided to gif up totally on my physics.. ): sadded.. sori dat i didn't bother to listen to ur lesssons today.. juz dat.. my heart reali can't forgive u for nt allowin me to drop and i hafta suffer this terrible fate of physics.. haix.. well.. hope this feelin thing goes away.. cuz havin a F9 or mayb an E8 or even u failin th paper.. is already veri veri terrible.. juz hope for a pass i guess.. at least my parents' money and my time and effort wun go to waste ba.. :
well.. was sufferin fr those hormonal imbalances moodswings again.. :\ i felt ok when i came to sch wid ahma.. oh we weren't late! (: ahahs.. bt en durin assembly my mood went deep down to th drain.. ): dunno wat happened oso.. i guess my brain juz went walkin ard in th deep woods again? rofls.. well.. u can't blame phebe for havin such a weird brain for tinkin too much again.. so my tots weren't straight and neither were my feelings.. zzz.. =.= and tokin bout assembly.. th moe tv crew came and film us today.. and i guess this is th first time i actuali cld hear th national anthem bein heard lurhs.. lmaos.. al those hypocritical "i love my country and my national anthem" thing.. bt well.. i guess is natural reaction for every1 to sing well infront of th camera.. no1 wanna b caught bein such a retard and idiot for nt even singin th national anthem.. oh well.. th irony again.. bt en aft sch i guess i felt beta cuz ther was my retarded twinaiai dat infected me wid her super retardness behaviour.. lols.. so i went retarded wid her we were lyk tryin to make sounds for "rofls" and "lmaos".. hahas.. super hilarious lurhs.. lol.. thanks so much my eva dearest twinaiai! (: so u shld b happy dat u cheered me up ok.. ahahs.. and aft dat i started behavin lyk a retard.. and seriously.. i tink behavin lyk a total retard do bring ur spirits higher.. so yepp.. felt much beta aft dat.. and i kept rattlin non stop accordin to cheyenne.. lols.. is ok.. at least rattlin and blabberin nonsense do make me feel beta ok.. (:
so we went far east.. and in th end didn't reali c any veri nice shoes altho ther were many many shoe shops.. went and tried a seemingly nice pair of heels.. and guess wat.. I HAF BIG FEET! it was so effin HUGE AND GIGANTIC dat i can't fit my leg in in th size 9 shoe lurhs.. =.= i shall repeat this again:
I HATE MY FEET BT NT MY LEGS! ahahs.. i kept on mixin up my legs and my feet and kept goin i hate my legs.. and dat is such a taboo for me ok..
I LOVE MY LEGS! (: ahahs.. i bet i'm soundin lyk sum kind of psychotic sadistic freak.. oh well.. went isetan.. saw dat nickelman shoes dat i liked bt in th end didn't buy it oso cuz of as expected dat effin big and ugly feet of mine so it looks kinda weird wearin it oso.. how nice.. rahhs! oh bt ahma and i shared and bought a bottle of nail polish together.. she's so gonna help me paint my toenails.. lols.. and eve bought 1 too.. i bet th salesperson muz haf tink dat we are super choosy ppl cuz we spend a whole hell lot of time choosin which colour to buy.. rofls..
off to th flea market and bugis wid them tml.. bt i guess cld onli meet em ltr cuz i gt amath tuition wid my cousin-in-law again.. sadded! bt well.. in fact i gotta thank him cuz i tink my amath reali did improve! (: well.. my dad was bein veri nice.. he drew a map of th flea market for us.. hope we wun get lost cuz eve and i are th blind mice.. bt i guess min and ahma aren't so street wise either ba.. oops.. u didn't c anything.. ahahs.. so juz pray hard dat we'll b able to find it..
oh.. and
tuesday wid morrie is reali a veri veri gd bk! highly recommended! ppl shld go and read it esp those ppl hu are so bz wid their lives dat nth else matters to em and those livin, lamentin and whinin in misery.. well.. i guess is so gd dat when i read it i juz kept noddin my head non-stop.. seems lyk everythin ther makes sososo much sense.. go read it! kaes.. shall b nice and rite 1 of th phrase dat made me wanna juz read it again and again:
"dun cling onto everything.. cuz everything is impermanent.. learn to detach.. dun hold bak th emotions bcuz it juz means u are afraid of th pain, u're afraid of th grief, afraid of th vulnerability dat lovin entails..
bt by throwin urself into these emotions, by allowin urself to dive in, al th way, over ur head even, u experience em fully and completely. u noe wat pain is. u noe wat love is. u noe wat grief is. and onli en can u say, ' alright, i haf experienced dat emotion. i recognize dat emotion. now i nid to detach fr dat emotion for a moment.."well.. hope ual understand.. if nt ual can try readin it over and over agin cuz dat's wat i did.. actuali ther were mor meaningful phrases infront juz dat this 1 is th most recent dat i read.. yepp.. shall uplaod al th others nxt time.. so now.. i shall end my post wid a meaningful note.. heh (: