Hello, my name is paper and I am a piece of paper.
My purpose is to have people write on me and to be printed by printers.
I like the smell of wood because it smells like my parents.
My ambition is to be thrown away and recycled.
(lmao i don't know what to put in here, so thanks Claire for the message.)
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
ok.. i'm finally bak bloggin aft nt bloggin 4 so long.. shall tok bout my cny first ba..
3o jan
-went 2 my uncle's place 4 dinner.. b4 dat al my relatives came.. as expected, my cousin became mor shuai.. hahax.. noe how 2 da ban.. lol.. bt he's stil as cool as eva.. anw, dat dae i juz kept eatin and eatin non stop.. in the end, i gained lyk 1kg.. dotx.. nth much happened..
31jan
-went 2 jon's hse bai nian.. his hse was huge.. his koi pond was even MUCH larger.. whoa! had movie marathon ther.. watched lyk 3 movies at 1 go.. cinderella stort, the best bet and 50 first dates.. 50 first dates was nice and chad michael murray is juz so so cute! (: heez.. i reali admire and wish dat i'll get happie endings lyk cinderella story and 5o first dates.. wher i'll juz b wid the 1 i loved and lived happily eva aft.. which is defintely nt goin 2 b true 4 me.. ): gt angbao aft dat.. onli $2.. -_-" en decided 2 go min's hse.. had a reali veri fun time ther.. finally i tot everythin was turnin out wel 4 me.. i tot dat we wil stil remain the same.. i guess i was so wrong.. the nite which made me suffer the most.. my dad scolded me ccb! his first time at me and summor durin chi new yr etcetc.. the whole nite i suffered fr insomnia.. i cldn't even sleep a wink 4 the whole bloody nite.. time was passin so damn slow 4 me.. decided 2 go read the Bible.. i was terribly disturbed.. haixx.. and God spoke 2 me.. omg! i cldn't bliff myself.. lyk how cum i'll actuali 4gt 2 turn 2 him when i was at my most troubled and disturbed state.. haixx.. i cried.. prayed 2 him.. felt mor peaceful.. bt i juz cldn't sleep.. my mind juz keep on tinkin and tinkin non stop.. it doesn't wanna stop.. ): haixx.. the worst nite eva..
o1feb
-went 2 sch wid a hevay heart 2dae.. juz cldn't concentrate.. and hold bak my tears.. kept cryin 2dae.. haixx.. cried durin chapel, cried in klasses, cried aft sch, cried on the way bak.. lyk how terrbile can dat b.. i tried 2 b strong.. i tried 2 hold bak my tears and put on a brave front bt i juz cldn't.. ): haixx.. i'm reali veri veri silly.. this is 1 thing i reali admire jolene 4.. she's owax able 2 put on such a happy face 2 sch and keep on stayin happie.. dat's 1 thing i reali gotta learn fr her.. pei fu pei fu.. haixx.. i tot i was strong bt i wasnt.. i was wrong.. haix.. actuali aft spendin of 1whole sleepless nite.. i tot of a decision.. tot dat it'll b perfect.. en i decided dat i'm gonna b harsher aft tinkin through it aft sch.. is nt worth it.. wrote down al my tots and felt much beta.. i was reali totally shagged.. manage 2 catch lyk 2h of sleep.. felt much beta.. bt stil tired though.. haixx.. ):
hmmm.. i wonder wat has reali happen 2 me? sumtimes i reali dun understand y things lyk dat happen 2 me? is so nt make sense.. so unfair.. y when i manage 2 settle 1 prob and i tot everythin wil b fine and en another serious 1 wil owax cum my way.. i can't take it anymor le.. i'm nt sum kind of superwoman hu can settle evry prob cummin my way.. i'm onli human.. i'm onli a limited phebe.. wat i'm afraid is nt dat i wun b able 2 settle this prob bt when i settle this prob another mor serious 1 wil cumm my way.. if dat reali happens, i'll reali break down.. i can't take it anymor le.. i haf reached my limit.. i neva had insomia 4 1 whole nite b4.. i nevA had 2 keep cryin and cryin and stil can't get my prob done.. arrgh! i haf enuff.. is reali drainin me of my energy.. common test is ard the corner and i haven't started studyin and i'm nt the least motivated aft al has happened 2 me.. ): i juzz gt bak bio and i flunk it agian.. haixx.. i oso dunno wad 2 do.. ): it seems lyk my whole world is crumblin down on me.. this time i'm reali reali veri depressed.. haixx.. i hate it! i reali hate it!
i've given myself a dateline 2 settle al my probs and i hope none anymor serious 1s wil cum hauntin me.. or i'll probably die.. haiix.. my sweet 16 bdae is comin in lyk 23 days rime and i'm so nt lookin 4ward 2 it.. i reali wan a happie 16th badae.. a bdae dat can make al my wishes cum true and a bdae dat wil make me stay happie 4eva..
anw.. tml bbal match.. phs vs nss.. the 1 dat i've reali been waitin 2 watch.. i reali wonder how iszit gonna b lyk tml..
and.. juz wanna thank those hu supported me and comforted me 2dae when i was completely devastated.. thanks loads! wat a dae i had 2dae.. ming tian hui gen hao?
wenqi and i wil both encourage each other in this tough times.. since i guess she's oso facin similar probs lyk me?
wenqi go go jiayou! phebe go go jiayou! (: jiayou! jiayou! jiayou!