Hello, my name is paper and I am a piece of paper.
My purpose is to have people write on me and to be printed by printers.
I like the smell of wood because it smells like my parents.
My ambition is to be thrown away and recycled.
(lmao i don't know what to put in here, so thanks Claire for the message.)
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
OMFS! OMFS! OMF! OMFS! OMFS! OMFS!
haixx.. this time i'm reali a goner.. haixx.. y do things owax happen lyk dat?! y do i owax heed my feelings at the wrong time.. kkx.. now i'll tel u wat happen last nite..
my parents kbkb me 2 off the computer when it was 11.. ok.. so i off.. en aft readin the Bible, i had nth 2 do.. so i went 2 the rm 2 lie on my bed and wait 4 him 2 cal me.. en i put the phone under my soft toy en put my hand ther in case it start vibratin en i'll b able 2 feel it.. so en i fell asleep without realisin.. en i tink in the middle of the nite when i was sleepin, my phone dropped off from my bed.. my dad came in the rm en he saw my phone on the floor he picked up and kept it 4 himself.. en the nxt dae bout 6 lyk dat i suddenly woke up and started searchin 4 my phone cuz i juz had a dream dat my phone was taken away.. and true enuff, i searched the whole bed and my phone cldn't b found.. i frantic.. so i came out of the bed and en i went 2 my dad's rm.. and i saw him lookin through the things in my phone.. i quickly snatched it away.. bt en i was 2 late.. he had saw everythin.. as in my inbox and sent items.. stil gt sum of his msg fr ytd dat i didn't delete.. bt the msg are al so friendly lyk a normal chat.. he veri yi shen yi gui.. he started questionin me lyk y i stil msg him.. en he was lyk aren't u suppose 2 break al contact wid him?! en i was dumb.. i go lie 2 him and say it was last time 1 bt haven't delete.. bt my dad ain't dat dumb 2 bliff cuz he saw the msg, he saw the date.. haixx. en he started reprimandin me..en i told him dat we are juz frens u so yi shen yi gui 4 wat?! i was correct wat.. en he scold me say i was rebellious.. yadayada.. he even warned me 2 break off al contact wid him and say dat i haven't wake uP?! en he's confiscatin my phone durin sec3 adv camp.. oh man.. lyk how cum so suay ah.. bt en he's reali tinkin 2 much lorrx.. we are juz frens wat.. lyk does he haf 2 b lyk dat?! i reali dun understand.. mummy said dat we can stil b frens.. so wat's his prob lahhx.. they are al lyin 2 me.. he ask me 2 setle th prob.. bt en wat can i do?! now he doesn't trust me at al lorrx.. and i dun wanna break al contact.. wat's the prob of bein frens.. he doesn't haf gal de frens b4 mehx? so? wat's he tinkin.. y do my parents contradict each other.. i reali dunno how 2 haf a peaceful and perfect soln.. bt en wat u wan me 2 do? u are lyk so damn forcin me.. THEY DUN TRUST ME AT AL!
i tried 2 put myself 2 sleep aft my parents went 4 work cuz i didn't go sch 2dae.. en it was reali nice 2 sleep.. cuz i manage 2 run away fr the problem and nt tink bout nethin when i was sleepin.. bt en.. when i wake up i'm bak 2 reality.. the reality when i haf 2 gif my dad a jiao dai again.. he's suppressin me.. i reali dunno wad 2 do.. now my mum oso.. lyk wat they wan me 2 do?! oh man.. i reali wil go mad lyk dat lorrx.. sum1 plz teach me wat 2 do.. any1.. plz.. i reali nid alot of help now.. i reali shld haf owax trusted my feelings.. i had a bad premonition again.. this time.. bt i juz ignored it.. now i'm twice bitten le.. i beta learn fr al my lessons.. is reali veri scary 2 haf parents nt 2 trust u.. and they keep diggin out and tokin bout him.. lyk ytd juz told my parents if i wanna go jc, i wanna go yishun jc cuz i tink dat's the most relax jc and DAT'S AL!! my dad go bring him up and say, y wanna go yishun jc cuz he goin iszit? cuz is near him iszit? cuz he live at yishun iszit? lyk wth lahhx.. ASSHOLE! arrrgh..
ok.. so now mayb goin 4 the camp ain't so bad aft al.. cuz i can run away fr my parents.. and i dun nid 2 face them 4 the time bein.. plz.. i nid help.. if ne1 has the perfect soln 4 me.. en plz cal and tel me.. sms me or nething.. i reali nid 2 make things work out.. i dun wanna run away fr my prob.. altho is reali nice 2 run away bt when u go bak 2 reality, u hafta face it again.. and is reali terrible if the prob keeps comin bak 2 haunt u.. tel me wat 2 do sum1.. plz.. juz tel me.. )':