heyyas.. hmmm.. had cca open hse in the mornin 2dae.. woke up late.. lyk 7.15 when i was suppose 2 reach ther at 8.. ok.. so in the end i was stil late.. bt en at least i wasn't the latest.. heex.. xP.. anw.. had choir singin and en the dance.. i stil love the dance.. hahax.. oh ya.. 4gt 1 thing.. eve 4gt 2 close her "coffee shop" early in the mornin!! LOL.. hahax.. thank God min was observant enuff lahhx or eve wld prob haf died fr embarrassment.. ok.. mayb she didn't and i did! -_-" uh le le.. i fell and embarrassed myself again lorrx.. dotx.. i'm lyk owax doin dat lahhx.. sec3 adv camp o5, trainin camp o5 and en now cca open hse o6.. lyk wth lahhx.. ther's seriously sth wrong wid my balance lahhx.. juz cannot walk properly.. TSK! *shakes head.. i hope no1 wil rmb the incidents lahhx.. and the worst thing is i OWAX fall infront of large crowds can wher every1 wil b lookin.. lyk how embarrassed can dat b lahhx.. zzz.. -ignts-
anw.. choir ended the earliest en we went macs 2 eat our breakfast.. haixx.. was feelin reali low and moody again.. sadded.. anw.. ate breakfast and felt abit beta.. wonders food and eatin can do sumtimes u noe.. hmmm.. en decided 2 go min's hse.. b4 dat eve and cheyenne went 2 ask bout the contacts en i realised i gt cheated al along lahhx! uh le le.. wasted sooo much of my money can.. oh man.. sumtimes i reali can't stand myself 4 bein so dumb lahhx.. haix.. phebe ah.. TSK! i felt totally cheated can.. anw.. we went 2 the playgrd.. en i started tellin anet and cheyenne wat reali happened bout us.. hmmm.. they tink is lyk excuses.. hope they wun b rite.. cuz now i stil trust him.. dun prove em rite ya? or i'll b totally diappointed wid u.. was lazin ard the playgrd and i started tinkin again.. guess i'm lyk min.. i mayb stonin ther bt my mind is defintely darn active... many tots wil run through ur mind.. haix.. went 2 min's hse and en took her mags and read.. hahax.. interestin.. min promise 2 gif me her mags le.. heex.. thanx! xP.. anw.. aft much decidin, we decided 2 go yishun safra 4 bowlin.. went 2 get a chocolate sundae first.. en saw him.. he suddenly look sooo different and so stranger 2 me.. lol.. weird me.. guess aft nt seein him 4 soo long do make a diff ba.. the him in my mind and the him i saw.. hmmm.. haix.. even i myself oso haf no idea lahhx.. told u i was weird.. =X anw went safra and waited 4 the ppl 2 cumm.. in the end i fell asleep.. and is those kind of deep sleep.. i didn't even noe ah ma came.. en aft dat went play sum arcade en went bowlin.. in the end didn't play.. i was broke.. so i c them play and i made names 4 them.. ahahx.. kinda fun.. anet and me over ther zi high! (: aft dat suddenly al of us gt nicknames lahhx.. i'm the blur de.. heex.. at least it sounds much nicer than sum of them lahhx.. hahax.. xP.. en aft bowlin went 2 eat wid them.. shared kwey chap wid zy.. quite ok lahhx.. hahax.. he's a gentleman.. at least he let me eat quite alot.. so if u wanna eat sth.. share wid zy.. heex.. oops.. =X aft dat went hme took the bus..
i saw this small boy hu sat nxt 2 me.. he looks so lost and depressed.. and i gt so worried so i decided 2 ask him did he lose his way.. tink i kinda scared him.. hahax.. bt he was cute lahhx.. heex.. xP.. at least i felt much beta 2 noe dat he didn't lost his way and made me less worried.. altho he stil looks so sadx and depressed lahhx.. lol.. =X ok.. i noe i'm bein weird again.. hmmm..
hmmm.. anw.. i am startin 2 feel dat i'm gettin relai scary.. my mood is damn extreme can.. i guess my swing muz b swingin reali veri high and low ba.. haix.. and it neva stops.. it keeps goin lorrx.. haixx.. sumtimes i hafta do things 2 keep my swing remainin high.. al the fake smiles and everythin is startin 2 get tired.. haixx.. i dunno wat's seriously wrong wid me.. hope al this wil juz go off lahhx.. is reali veri terrible 2 b lyk dat.. tryin 2 run away fr my probs and everything.. haix.. sadded.. hope everythin wil juz b temporary and it goes away and neva cums bak.. *prayin*..